Wow the last time I posted something was on October 3. That’s the longest I’ve ever had away from the blog. Since then, I have finished midterms, planned a friend’s wedding in twenty days, came home for Thanksgiving, saw the Lion King, was rear ended (I’m fine, thanks for asking), finished my internship, went to two weddings, finished my finals strong, moved out of my apartment, graduated from college, moved back up North to the Bay Area, celebrated Christmas and the New Years, went to Warriors vs. Heat game, planned a baby shower, and finally joined a gym. Whew.
These past few months have been absolutely crazy and to be honest, I found myself avoiding this blog for a while. Not so much so because I have been too busy in the midst of all of this, but I’ve always wanted to know the answers to everything and have it all figured out. And for the past few months, I didn’t. I didn’t want to be writing about all my joys and hopes and dreams and be lying through all of my posts. It wasn’t an identity crisis, but through all of these changes, I just need to ask, now that I have finished and retired my 18+ year title of “student,” where do I go from here? Where am I called to and where do I now belong? In the hustle and bustle of the go-go-go mentality, where do I find true joy, meaning, and purpose? Where am I called to be?
This morning I woke and it dawned on me how I’ve been trying to run away from all of this new reality. The reality that I am now to seek employment that I would like to be passionate about, the reality that I will not be returning to school in the Spring semester even though all my other friends will be (thank you SnapChat for #fomo), the reality that their lives will continue there while I try to figure mine out up here, the reality of now a real world life outside of the college bubble. It’s such an odd shift in the world you have built around yourself and its something new to face. But this morning I came to the realization that this is the way life goes. We can either wallow and trudge through the reality that is going to come whether we want it to or not, or we can see it in a new light, accept the fact that even though I don’t have this all figured out, it’s okay. So here’s to a new chapter, the Post-Grad Life.